Monday, November 26, 2007
>when everyone asl mi how come i don't talk about my problem alot.. i always wonder about it... Is it i get use to being alone? or i perfer to keep it in my heart? or i did not have any friends to talk to when i was young so i get use to keeping it in my heart? i really don't know... Till on one sat when i was a marina square when i saw a da giving his son 3 tight slap in front of the whole crowd. Is then i recall what happen to mi when i was in primary 2. i guess i was a normal child who always like attention. espically the attention given by teacher i guess.. kid are like that.. i remember seeing one of my classmate (i cannot remember his name) having tibit inside his pocket.. it was ma ma mi.. crispy noodles.. i saw him eating it in class. so the first thing i do is to said: "hor! you got tibit inside your pocket. i go tell teacher.. ' then i ran up to the front of the class to teacher to tell the teacher that he got tibits inside his pocket.. the teacher was telling mi don't lie.. i guess i always lie or talk rubbish ba.. that y teacher never trust mi. haha.. anyway, my teacher went up to him and check his pocket.. there wasn't any tibits there.. and guess what? the teacher give me a tight slap on my cheek in front of the whole class.. i was only primary 2 when she give mi a tight slap on my face.. maybe that when i learn to bottom thing up and never said it out.
there actually good and bad.. Good is i learn not to tell other secert out.. bad is i kept my own too..
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
>When i was a kid. i always believe in angel. believe that santa clause will appear on christmas.. Believe that you will get good luck and the present you want if you are a good kids. or nothing will happen to you if you follow the rule of life.. this and that... But my question is what have we done wrong.. are we naught kids? what have we done to deserve this things? i been a nice kids, doing every thing that i am suppose to do... just wishing for a simple dream, that happiness. but where my angel? where is it.. I wanna ask the angel if it possible to take my happiness and spread it to ppl around me.. rather then wasting it on me. i no longer feel anything.. nor happiness.. as long as ppl around me are happy, i am happy liao.. this christmas theme is called fantasy christmas. with lots of fairy and all elf.. but it no longer exsist in my world... i no longer believe in fairy tales. It all only happen in story book and tv.. no in reality.. no longer in reality..
Thursday, November 15, 2007
>Luckily for him, he got off my world fast. I realise that i wasn't that kind, friendly, outgoing person i thought i was. i was just a devil in a angel clothes. I put on the clothes to make myself look good. and trying to bluff myself. but i start to hate the angel clothes. i lost one thing.. SELF LOVED. no longer the adel u guys know.. i just wanna or hope to live in a urban island.. a simple and peaceful life.. too much wants to fulfiled.. too tired. I not that kind and friendly as u guys think i was.. that was my fake idenfied u all seen.. so from today onwards, BEWARE OF ME. beware of this DEVIL in angel clothes.
