Friday, May 17, 2013
17/05/2013>

It kind of weird that I can back to blog in my thought since nowadays ppl like to post it in a Facebook their though. Perhaps I just need some place private space to throw my thought without any ppl comment.

I saw this advertisement about starhub (happy everywhere).. Saw this scene where three guys were holding a board each in the mid of orchard, and on the board it wrote (free hug).. It trigger me off, when was the last time that we really hug or being hug by someone whole heartedly.. As we grow older, we lost ourself to the environment.. We are afraid of showing our own feeling, afraid of getting hurt. We try tract like other just to fit ourself into the group. I realize that I need a hug, a friendship hug badly that y I fall in love with my bear (although there no heartbeat or warm in the bear hug) but it kindly of calm me down when I need a hug badly..

It not easy to speak up to close friends. It not because i change, it because i care and afraid that i might lose them or they might look down on me when i tell them my thought. Afraid that they think I change and hence drift farer from me. But good thing I got this blog where I can just throw my though in.

I tender my resignation today.. There a mixed feeling in me, and I badly need a Friend to accompany me to share my though. I send a few message asking them, but it wasn't any fault of them that all of they cannot meet me.. It was too last minutes. End up,  I took a long long bus ride home (approx 3 hour and 30 min) with my mp3 playing my favorite radio station. A wave of thought keep flooding into my mind, there wasn't any answer to my thought,, perhaps I feel better if  some question is better to left unanswered.


# posted by @d3lin3 | 11:07 PM | 0 comments