Thursday, July 21, 2005
Hate going to school>

Hey.. Guess what, three month to 'o' level, but i really want to call a quit. but on second thought, it not really worth it.. Wasting 7 month studying for 'o' level.. But the truth is that i am really afraid of going to school... I don't find pleasant going to school, i also don't know where or what the problem with me, i just cannot figure it out.. i found that i don't understand myself more, i don't know what i want in life, perhape i just want to be a slacker.. hahaha.. lame right. I really tried my best in my test but somehow i just not able to pass it.. i am not that clever as what ppl expect me to be.. i hate going to one of the 'subject' lesson, i do anything to avoid going to the lesson.. really, the whole class are far better then me in that subject, it make me odd one out. I swear i really tried my best.. really !! i cried just because of that subject..

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Sunday, July 10, 2005
So busy..>

Mi now busy with my studies that i don't have much time to play around.. 4 subject to master and 1 art coursework to be completed by dateline... pre-perlim is making me crazy.. My math paper is incomplete.. sure fail one.. My english paper not to mention, i don't even know what am i doing. Guess what, i just dream of her scolding mi for my english paper, for writing rubbish in it.. Maybe i over stress myself too much, that why i dream of her.. so far i only manage to master a few chapter of some subject only.. got to study harder, cause i don't have much time left before 'o' level.. hope that i don't have to see the v.p again for my pre-perlim result.. But i doubt so.. anyway, i think it because of my poor time managment.. mother tongue result will out soon, hope that i will pass with a b4 at least..

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Saturday, July 02, 2005
My own thought>

I just got back from school at 5.45pm... Me now sitting in front of the computer playing games.. School has already started for 5 days, but somehow, i felt that there a empty feeling inside me.. Still remember the first time back to school after school reopen at term 3.. Just me alone walking down the street toward my schoool all alone.. stranger around me, hoping that there will be someone to walk down with me.. someone to talk to me on the way to school. When i reach the school, i wanted to join my class quickly and greet all my friend a 'good morning' and 'welcome back to school'. But i suddenly took back the idea cause i don't really like to greet someone which i am not really famailar with.. i mean those close talk friend that type.. I found out a truth is that i just cannot bland on with them.. My thought and their is different.. I am unable to open out my world for my new friend to enter.. I am still very depended on my own batch friend.. When i retain in secondary four, i tried to avoided my friend in secondary five cause i don't like the feeling of being look down.. But when i found that i needed them, somehow i felt that the distance has already drift apart.. Too far apart for me to reach for them.. staring at my handphone waiting for the whole day for anyone to message me.. But the whole day, my phone seem so deadly silence.. and my family always came home late, so when i reach home, i be facing four wall and hearing silence.. Slience on the way to school, back from school make me felt that i am all alone without anyone by my side.. In fact i quite a shy person who don't really enjoy talking to a stranger or someone i don't really know very well.. That why until now, i still haven really able to bland into my current class.. But i really thank to all my friend who have help me all along thought my retain years.. Thank

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