Monday, November 20, 2006
>Darm suck... Today not my day.. sian.. Came home from school where this perverts follow mi.. then he sit behind mi.. i got so irrated by him that i move place.. then he follow.. so i start to get supericious of him... when i stop at my stop.. he follow.. normal at traffic light.. only kids and office adult run at it cause they use to rush for it as they are afraid of late.. so when i start running.. he follow.. so i know abit of what he want liao.. so i stopped at the other end of the traffice light and shouted at him.. telling him if he follow again i will report it to the police.. i knew that shouting at him in public will make him go away asap.. darm suck.. after that i can really tell you is that i am really darm scared.. it true ok..
Friday, November 17, 2006
Freedom>hiax... mi now using my school com to blog this post.. really slow le, my school com.. Today don't know y just feel so happy, maybe because of something that seem to be better... haha.. get back my test result today.. I only got 85 mark.. idiot.. thank to my stupid and classless mistake.. i should have memories the thing be4 i get into the exam class... haix... anyway, i thought of something which i ahd memtion on my last post.. To give up something so that i will be having enough energy to do more thing.. I guess that will be my working job.. That problem i willl thought of it later when the time ripe or when the problem really occur.. i beem getting more tired lately... stress or not enough time to sleep? i will know it when i have relases one of the responsibilities i been holding on.. maybe too much responsibilities then i am capable of really tired mi out.. Holding on to 2 CCA.. holding on to the top few in class, holding on to my job.. it mot as easy as i thought it was.. staying attentive in lesson or finding time to do my homework is alrealy a hard thing for mi.. not to memtion having 2 CCA and doing the project for THE SCHOOL.. it really stink.... i am only 19.. I want freedom... i just wanna enjoy life.. that all.. i don't wanna regret when i get older and cannot do the thing i like anymore...
Thursday, November 16, 2006
why is there a devil within us ?>i was so board today that i started to flip through my photo albume.. I always love to look at the photo.. Behind every photo, there lies a story. It also remind mi of the past. Looking at the picture, i could see an innocent face.. when we are young and have not really know or see much of the world yet, we all so innocent like an angel.. An apple of everyone eyes... we know nothing about backslab and speaking bad thing behind the person back.. We will always said "i don't want to friend you.." but the very next mintues, we forget about evrything and start playing together again.. when we do something wrong, we will always put a cute and innocent face that make the angry adult face fade away to a smiling face.. But as we grow older, the devil within us started to grow, as we discover more of the world ugly side.. we lies when we make a mistake.. we blackslab the person if they did something wrong.. We remember it for life if they offend us the second time.. we blame it on other when thing do not work out right. Why do we grow up on this ways?
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
Committimemt>School, work, homework, CCA and other committement like going yunan and doing CIP locally really stress mi out.. some of my CIP fall on Sat and i am working on sat.. So i either have to apply leave on sat or work the afternoon shift.. Still woundering if my boss ever allow mi.. Wanting to quit but thinking if i don't have an income, i will have to lean on my family to support mi.. I just want my family to have more money to spent to enjoy a better life, and also at least if something ever goes wrong with my dad job.. at least my family still can support on my mum and my income.. Althought it not that much but at least if it really happen, we can at least have something to support the basic need of my family.. And if did not have a CCA, i might have a hard time going to Poly compare to those student with a good result and a CCA..then my ITE cert will be wasted.. And hardly any job can be found with only ITE cert. Committment like Doing CIP locally and oversea help mi to broaden my view on certain thing, to make a better mi.. This is something which i looking forward to, something which interest mi among all these committment. School is definatly something i cannot give up.. So if i really want to give up thing.. can anyone just tell mi which one can i really give up.. Tired, tired.. cannot wait till school holiday to get a good rest.
