Thursday, April 22, 2010
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I HATE HATE IT !!! EVERYTHING SUCK!!!! what has happen to my own life. It seem that i had lose control of it liao!!! I did not know what to do. Wanting to let go but afraid of letting go.. I hate my job but i afrais of exploring into new choice. Funny isn' it?

I know it my fault for not placing it. But when i left the thing it still not on my desk.. AGAIN WHY IS IT MY FAULT FOR THING THAT HASN'T APPEAR ON MY DESK????? BLOODY IDIOT FOOL!!!! ASSHOLE!!!!

IDIOT KNOW THAT IT TAKE 2 HAND TO CLAP.. BUT WHY AM I THE ONLY ONE THAT HAS TO TAKE THE BLAMING??????

WHY IS MY LIFE SUCH A FAILURE. NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRY, NOTHING GOOD TURE OUT. EVERYTHING JUST SUCK TILL THE END.. MAYBE YOU ARE RIGHT, I AM A FAILURE. A FAILURE IN EVERYTHING, EVERY SINGLE THING IN LIFE. Once thing are achieve, maybe it time to let go.

# posted by @d3lin3 | 11:39 AM | 0 comments


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There really alot more to explore in this world. Thought to pounder about, thing to learn. Sometime, it just depend on which angel are you staning at to look at this problem. Being denfinsive is a way to protect yourself, some people look it as to push the blame far away from them. Or trying to hint that they got nothing to do with the problem. Maybe that human nature.

I use to said i hate people who backslach other. But are we sure we never do it before? I think that i am walking more toward the evil side of mi now. Being a two headed snake. Sometime, i did not mean it but it seem that word just came out of my mouth. I did not choose it but it just came out. I want to said 'sorry' but it really hard for mi to open up and said sorry to the person i said the words out to just because i did it out of angry.

Life is fair, you gain something, but somewhere, you lose something. You might know it or you might not notice it because it no longer important in your life. Just liek a family with alot of money, The parent is busy earning money for their kid and also chasing the important in life like statue and lifestyle, That they forgotten their primary goals like a happy family having a day off to enjoy pinic or kite flying together. I keep chasing into the dream world that i want to creat for myself that i neglected friend and family. Maybe i was just jelouse of other family or rather my own sister for having a great bonding with the family. I did not have much common with them, it really make mi feel left out. But once i step a step into pursing my dream, i afarid to let it go. Afraid of losing all my powder that i got. Maybe that the reason i choose to hold on and ingore the primary goal of being with my family and enjoy a day of relaxing out together.

# posted by @d3lin3 | 11:27 AM | 0 comments


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We are all human being. It okie to be angry or jelouse at time. At least we are being true to ourself. It different kind of situation, there are million to zilltion of feeling and emption being make up depend on the person character and mindset. Selfishness is definite as one of them. People always has this said, Be true to yourslef or rather be yourslef. So being selfifsh is just being myself. However, why are we being scream and blame for being oueself? There a question that going throught my mind without any answer. we always mention that we understand other feeling when consolde them, but ow true is it? were you in the same mindset or rather same sttutide when face the same situation? Jelouse is one thing, but we are human being don't admit to it, Cause we are taught that if we admit certain kind of feeling, we are being scold for having narrow thinking.

# posted by @d3lin3 | 11:19 AM | 0 comments


Friday, April 09, 2010
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It seem that the distance between us has grown widen. Was it because we don't spend much time together or there wasn't much topic between us to discuss?
We use to have long talk over the phone for 3 to 4 hour for 3 times a week. to short talk of 30 to 1 hour , to 2 time a month on a phone to 10 mintues per call. Looking back in life, really miss the time we had together, the bonding that we once share tightly that no one can break it up.
My normal convesation of message with my work friend are more that our message together. what has happen? was it because that we no longer share the topic, was we were too busy working that we lose our usual self.
Now i know what people always said don't look back. cause looking back can only make your more sad. I miss everything we use to hold tightly in our heart in the past.

# posted by @d3lin3 | 10:27 AM | 0 comments


Tuesday, April 06, 2010
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Adult world is rather difference from a kid world. Maybe it because the view point is difference. the friend that we get to know in kid world might not have the same feeling as we grow older. The topic we share, the time we had on phone. the feeling even when we met is difference. We all had our own promblem to solve, our own world to tackle. we tend to keep ourselves in our own world becuase who would like to be open out to hurt and pain? But a true love is to let go. Cause you will your friend or your love one to find happiness, people who also help to lit up their life and smile. love can
when u refuse to let go, it might be because you are afraid to lose it. Saying ''letting go'' this word is easy. But question is if we were the one in that place of it, will it be that easy for you? Seeing my friend in trouble, worry about thing and problem in family. But there nothing i can do, make mi feel useless. I hardly have time to lend her my hearing ear. what can i do?

# posted by @d3lin3 | 10:17 AM | 0 comments