Saturday, December 01, 2007
>Dear Diary....
I would describe myself as' han xu ca' on very shy plant.. everytime i try to open up myself, i ended up being hurt.. think maybe i should not put in too much effort in things.. so i will not be able to get hurt again.. i hate myself... never seem to do thing right.. i try to be a good child in school.. help teacher do this and that.. but when teacher lost their thing, they put the blame on mi althought my friend all said that it wasn't me... i thought i earn trust in ppl... But it all turn out that i was just bluffing myself... i try my best in everything, but it never turn out the result i want.. it just turn worst for mi... then maybe i should not put in any effort at all.. ppl said life IS NOT ALWAYS FAIR.. but life HAD NOT BEEM FAIR for mi... it really tired... i am really tired of trying my best.. wish that i could close my eyes and never wake up... haha.. really looking forward to going malaysia... somewhere i can relax and get away from all these thing.. maybe i will feel better.. and when ppl said promise.. i hate it.. cause alot of sadness and regret come from promise... and to me, promise are just mean to be broken and to be kept forever... not at all anymore...
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