Monday, September 22, 2008

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What am i still thinking of.. what am i still looking into? nothing to be hold.. it time to let go.. but how far can i let it go? but if i hold on... how long can i hold on.. people do change. it amazing people can forget thing easily.. but y can't i do that.. maybe beacsue it hurt mi deeply.. i always scold people stupid.. think i should be rank first for stupid.
Just celebrate my birthday on friday.. thought that i would be happy.. But early in the moring.. when my mum knew my menu, i got a big scolding from her.. all my mood for the day is spolit.. I tried to be happy but i cannot.. so i decieded to PRETEND.. it hard but i cannot let my freind and relative see my sad face.. i don't even know when i started to learn to pretend.. when ?
adn i knew that he had gotten himself in a new relationship.. But y i still goes into his profile to see it.. y must i make myself so sad.. y must i make myself cry.. Y ?