Sunday, November 29, 2009
>people use to said look don't matter, it the inner that matter.. But how truth is it? it just a entertainment sentence or what ? Is it really truth that we never judge a person by it look? you dare to swear to it? If it really truth, then why are there people who working so hard to keep in look? to create the first impresstion.. and that look again!!
we all try so hard to keep in look just to fit into the social norm.. So hard that some of us lose our happiness on the way.. JUST TO BE IN THE SOCIAL NORM? once you look fat, people don't said it in front.. but they will dicuss it at the back of yours.. Thye said they don't want to hurt your feeling.. But why do they said that look don't matter but discuss it at the back of yours?
if we don't bother about look? then why are we so bother about ours own look? Going for facial treatment, going for slimming down. Wearing nice and new clothes. Making ours hair nice?
Maybe it all depend on which point of view you are standing.. But truthfully i don't even know where i stand myself. But don't ever said that setences that look don't matter because you have break it already..
Friday, November 27, 2009
>I choose to be a angel. But enviroment or should i said reality has change me into devil. The tempetation they given me was only suvivor. Only when u are evil, then you will know when other going to lauch a attack on you. ' good people always died early' sound familar huh? being too nice, people just take advantage of you. you help them once, they will keep using you to do it. Because angel don't said 'No'.
My teacher taught mi that this world don't need another mother teresa. In this reality, people just don't care. It help them to save their butt from trouble or to protect their job. what ever the reason maybe. They can pretend nothing happen when they saw other people being in disadvangtage. they would just said, it not problem so why should i care, why should i raise the problem out? human will then weight the benfit in it. If there isn't any, or it going to affect their staute in the orgainization, over you fat hope they will help you.
when people are sad, they just want someone to be there for them. But not to ask 'why' question. Because it really annoying. when the person it ready to said it out, it will said. so just be there to lend a shoulder but not ask question. it really help the person alot. Imagine, you are really rather sad about being replace or family issuse. Would you want other to ask you ' why are u feeling vexed?' 'why you quarrel with your family' 'why this and why that' STOP IT!!!. when a person in vexed, what you said might trigger it more. or 'you should not quarrel with them' 'i know what they did is wrong but they are your parent' COME ON... the person is already..... and you are leturing them. Bet you are in this situtation before. But when we are at the other position, we tend to forget what we expect too when we are in the moodly sititation. So just be there silent and ready to lend a shoulder but PLEASE keep your month tight till they are ready to said. Sometime, people do think without thinking. give them some space, i guess we are all old enough to think but all we need is to cool down first. And if there always an answer to every 'WHY' question then i bet alot of us has a few 'WHY' question to ask god.
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
>A lot of thing has been punder in my mind. Most of us look upon someone as a role model. But what if the role model fail us? what will we think? We always said human are not perfect. Everyone make mistake. Are we able to forgive the person who make mistake? or are we going to leave on our pride? Why is it always so hard to said 'sorry' to our love one? we can said 'sorry' easily to any stranger but not our love one. why? We get tounch by sad story outside. We can see other people problem easily and cristise them. But why cannot we see ours? why is it so hard to care for our love one or even tell them 'i love you' ? when was the last time we even told our parent that 3 words? symbiosis relationship - it is a relationship that do not involve sexually but only feeling, trust or even looking upon the person as role model. It happen mostly to the person if they are in high position. Seriously i don't mind, having people symbiosis mi. Lol.. maybe at least someone bother and care about me.
I always love to be in the back stage doing support. But as time goes on, i perfer to be in the front getting all the power i want. I always thougt that even if you do not have the cert, as long as you have the hardworking in you and experience in you will do. But as i grow up, i realise that people really look in cert. If you were to use hardworking as a point. It totally wrong. People is just making use of you to do extra work while they lay back and relax when you are doing their work. And when it time for reward, they will get it. But gods know who the one doing it. You think your boss know? they never able to see what below them, they only get to see what around them and above them. Some or rather should i said most of them are trying to please people above them. Look also win alot in this reality. People judge you on how you look. With look and bootlicking. You are definitely in a winning position and the best survivor.
Friday, November 20, 2009
WHAT HAPPEN ?>Different people have different view. Some look thing at a different angle. when people grow up, their mind change according to the envirement or peer around, or because of some unfinish business in them? Or because of problem occur in their stage of life that lead them to who they are? i really don't know the actual answer.
When i was young i use to believe in fairytales. Believe in everything people said or even in stranger. i never had a doubt about what they said or even pounder about what they said are right or not. But now, it different. i start to doubt in everything. Thing they told mi or the action they do. Sometime i even suspect that they had an intent of doing all thing thing. i don't believe that people will do thing without a benfit to them. I even think that even human have a devil in them. On one is a complete angel. I seem to doubt on most of the thing. what trigger my doubt? or is it because i lost my self-confident or i don't even who i am now.
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Past few day thought>feeling quite sick today.
Past few day, the result for my counselling skill is out and guess what i got a 'F'.. REALLY DARM IT!!!! seriously i do care abit of my result but maybe not that much. Because i am a sore loser. i really put in alot of rather abit more effort then other. but how come they can pass and i can't. that my first thinking even before i get an answer to why i fail. BEACUSE of my assigment. Really stupid of mi. i am a real idiot. save it in mirsoft 2007 instead of 2003 to 2007. but one thing i am unhappy is that why cannot they tell mi that they could not open the file. why must they put a 'F' and require mi to ask them myself.. What if i so STUPID and never ask????? Then it means that i would fail the module. And pay that $150 to retake the test when i could had pass it in the first place. Even if i retake the test, i would fail. Because they could not open my assigment at all... But overall because i am a sore loser. Seriously.
I choose to switch off my phone or even not replying call or message because i just wanted to be alone. and the great thing is i learn to make up excuse of why i did not reply call or message instead of telling my friend that i just want to be alone. Because sometime, you just want to be alone but don't want your friend to know what happening. i don't want to grap any attention on me. I just want to lay low profile. But if i don't answer call or message, my friend start getting angry at me, without any choice but to lie. Certain thing even if you tell your friend, to what extend can they help??? How long can they be there?? sometime, i just need to be alone cause certain thing i got to sort it out myself. nobody can help mi. It can inner thought or inner conflict that hurting me. i need to solve it myself. Counsellor can only assist you. friend can only give advice. But only mi and myself can solve or had the power to control it.
